Curls & Twirls

Ahh… I feel so jealous of FJ’s blog… so nice!!! Got pictures and links and nice headers…! Hahaha. Maybe I should change to blogspot cause Friendster blogs seem so hard to configure.. or perhaps I’m just cRappy at all this information technology!!!!

If you wanna visit FJ’s blog, it’s at schmucksite.blogspot.com ! This advertisement is of my own accord - her blog is interesting and she writes about everything under the sun - ranging from A-levels exam to people who suffer in silence. Really nice writing style too - and that woman has a much better vocab than me. (She scored 60% on sth that I got a miserable ZERO on!!!!)

This Sunday when Qian was leading singspiration, she sang the song "All that I am" :

All that I am, all that I have,
I lay them down before You, O Lord.
All my regrets, all my acclaim,
The joy and the pain, I’m making them Yours.

Lord, I offer my life to You.
Everything I’ve been through, use it for Your Glory.
Lord, I offer my days to You,
Lifting my praise to You, as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord, I offer You my life.

Things in the past, things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true,
All of my hopes, all of my plans,
My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

The line "All my regrets, all my acclaims, the joy and the pain, I’m making them yours" really moved me. I’ve heard this song so many times, but I only realized on Sunday how uplifting it can be to have a God who is willing to listen time and time again to our sorrows. I mean, seriously, isn’t it wonderful to know that there is someone out there who WANTS to hear about your grief, and who will not judge you - yet that someone knows what is wrong and right, and He will guide you away from danger.

The other day I was talking to a friend and she said that she has problems with sharing because she is afraid of judgement. I guess it’s very true - no matter how hard we try not to judge others, a little nano-sized part of our brain still insists on judging! Nobody listens to something without forming an opinion - it is just humanely impossible!!!!

I know when I am really, really upset, I like to go outside in my garden in a particular spot to just ponder and cry. Most of the time, Night (my sister’s black labrador) and sometimes Xena (mum’s Alsation) and Simba (my cute cute golden Labrador!!!!!!) will come and accompany me. Often, Night will try to cheer me up by giving me a sloppy lick on the face. (Haha, sooo cuteeee righttttt…). Somehow, even just after 5 minutes, I feel much better. I call it dog-therapy. They’re not there to criticize, arbitrate or even advice. All they do is silently listen - and you know they won’t let the cat out of the bag!!! Your secret is safe with them - and you always get an affectionate kiss at the end to cheer you up!

I know I try not to judge people on what they do, but sometimes it is just so hard! On the other hand, I think a little judgement is good so that the victim sees what he/she is doing. Sometimes we need a little knock-in-the-head cause we are just too blinded. I know someone who was willing to sleep with her ex just so that he’ll come back to her. Only after an exasperated disaproval from her friend did she realize that that was a rather short-term (and silly?) solution! I mean, sex is not the only thing that would keep a relationship alive, right? You can’t solve the emotional problems with sexual medication! Ah…here I go judging again!!!!

Anyway, this girl is not a weak personality. In fact, she is one of my most admirable friends and she often inspires me to be a better person. My point being - even the strongest of characters sometimes need a little nudge in the right direction. And if a nudge don’t work, go ahead and push!!!! I believe being a friend doesn’t just mean sharing the happy moments and tolerating each other’s faults. If you really care for your friend, you’ll risk hurting your friend so that he/she can see how wrong he/she is! Afterall, won’t it be more hurtful to let your friend make an incredibly huge mistake?